wowza

"don't even worry about it. i just hope that you'll feel better ok? goodnight and sweet dreams to you Kristina"
"i stayed up for you"

i lava people that know what i want to hear, thats what i need sometimes. i h8 when people say they hate when people only say things they wanna hear. I LAVA when people say what i wanna hear, fucking proof that you know me too well. and no one can be fucking honest with me anymore. if i'm fucking crying just tell me the fucking truth, it can't get any worse, IM ALREADY CRYING. shit. if i needa fucking grow the fuck up, let me know ,shit. but know whens the right time, people have the worst timing. telling me its okay, to cheer up and to fucking talk to someone else doesn't fucking help me. i have such fucking high expectations for everyone, i'm always upset! you've had so much practice with me being upset you should know exactly what to do or say.

the people i told that i was upset to, wrong people. seriously.
everyone: stop reading this / stop talking to me, i'm self destructive.