wad up ma

This picture is dedicated to a character named Josh.

So basically I have been thinking a lot lately (omg, she thinks?). Okay so, since I've had major reality checks I wanted to just list out my goals for my life. I'm so indecisive and I have no idea what i want in life, so here are things I want to do. First off, today I was talking to Erik <3 and he we were discussing how I should be talking with good grammar since I go to a good high school, and i should show off my english 11 skillzzz. So, my goal is to talk pretty proper. I mean seriously, when am i going to get out of my 'JU' phase? It's kind of my thing but its so mundane now. Second, I've been watching a shit load of Project Runway and Tim Gun is the ultimate teacher of unique / big words. I'm not even sure if I used mundane correctly but, you know what? WHAT ABOUT FUCK YOU. (: Someone teach me how to use big words, p l e a s e ? (: Third, I had a presentation on the Spanish Inquisition today; basically i want to be comfortable speaking in front of people. I have no idea what my problem is anymore, at Saint Clement I used to LAVA public speaking. Now, it's a drag AND my voice gets hella shaky. It's ridiculous I feel stupid THEN i feel like Ricky Bobby and have no idea where to put my hands so I start fidgeting and then I play with my hair. GAY SHIT NIGGAH. Fourth, I need to stop saying nigga / niggah / nig / nigz / nigerian. I need to clean up my language ): Rissa, stop cussing okay? I feel like its my fault for your potty mouth. Actually, Rissa is worse, she says niggER. "Nigger Guy" (: I love SouthPark if you know what I'm talking about I hope you are literally laughing out loud, I am. What number am I on? Well, numbering them was a stupid idea so let me continue. I want to start loving myself. Is that the queerest thing you heard? I'm being serious, I have no idea how to accept compliments. You like my hair? EW WHAT THE FUCK I DIDN'T EVEN COMB IT TODAY! You like my shirt? EW, IT'S A HELLA UGLY COLOR. You like small tits? FREAK! /; Why can't I just be appreciative of what I have, hair that smells good but looks like a poodle, clothes that fit my standards of nice and small tits. I think I like small titattayyz now to be honest. People with huge tatz hate it & and people with small titayz h8 it. I want to like having small titties, first girl ever. (I do realize that i spelled boobies like 97483 different ways) OMG no fair though, I have hella bad back problems, it's probably from my man shoulders (SEE ! I DON'T LOVE MYSELF!!!). Next, I wanna start loving JUU (dude, fuck it! I love saying 'ju' , sawwy erik baby), why can't i accept people for who they are? I'm learning, I'm learning. I'm getting sleepy. OH! I want to be in bed by 11:30 from now on. OH! I also want to not be online before 6. So basically, I won't be on before six or after 11:30. My eye site is COMPLETE shit.

I downloaded 129 songs in the past two days. I'm ridiculous, NO! I love myself, it's wonderful!
Gooluck Kevin & Ryan & Jeff tomorrow (: Ryan can we talk again? PLEASE!!
& (: (: (: to Christopher, YAY for licences.
& (: (: (: to Vicki , YAY to driving ME
& (: (: (: to Memorial, I finally been behind the gates
& (: (: (: to Dairy Queen Soft Serves
& (: (: (: to clearing things up

Keep me happy world.
&Happy Birthday to my BabyBro tomorrow.