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i have no idea what i want. i'm suppose to do what i need to do to be happy. i did what i thought i needed to do, i'm still not happy. i'm suppose to say sorry for the mistakes i made, i did & i'm still not happy. i'm suppose to surround myself by the people i love, i did & i'm still not happy. i'm suppose to ignore the people i wanna drop kick, i did & i'm still not happy. i'm suppose to be honest & tell people how i really feel, i did& i'm still not happy. i'm suppose to be happy, & i'm still not happy.

so , fuck what i'm suppose to do . i'll do what i want & if i'm not happy, well.. fuck my life then.
i have no idea what will make me happy. i don't even know what happy looks like anymore.
the letters together even look weird to me. h a p p y . ugh!