unhappy.

Dear homogirls&br0gays,
I was looking through my photobucket & I'm pretty sad. I'm not gunna lie, I miss us. It's weird for me to say considering that i'm such a bitch all day everyday & don't give any effort to our friendship / appreciate the effort you try to give. What can I say, I'm not a happy person. There's no simple way to make me happy because no matter how I look at it things there is always something i can pick at. I'm sorry though, I wouldn't change one thing I did though. I did what I felt I needed to do to be happy, but I'm still not happy. I guess I realized that it's not who I'm with, I mean it is, but its more about how I approach the situation / what attitude I give off. I feel that I made myself push myself away from you guys. Well, I didn't mean to push you guys away, but it happens, especially when I get to comfortable around people, I get too much time to overthing things. Hopefully, you remember my personality- a selfcentered sailormouth dumbassazn. I hope you never took the things I said infront / behind your back (if you didn't hear about em, then .. hahahhaha) too seriously. Anyways, effort isn't my strong suit so I'm probably gunna awkward up your life. I have a million things to say, so I'm just gunna say everything, nows a nice time to stop reading if ju don't accept my apologies / weren't in HB. So, basically you know I can't keep friends & I was thinking about how I regret letting some of my bfffz drift ):. I seriously sat here in silence & thought about it. I was thinking about how when I look back on freshman/sophomore year I'm gunna think about you assholes. I'm gunna think about all those kick its we had (but honestly, i can't pin point them, my memory is shit) & thepictures we took together (BUT NEVER ALL 16?! assholes) and I'm gunna think about the reasons why I grew apart / pushed you guys away. I can honestly say, I have no valid reason. I used to think being annoying was a justification for not wanting to be around you guys (told you i'm a bitch all day everyday). But then I think about all my bullshit that you have to put up with. The antichrist sitting with you guys on the bench, the asshole that doesn't wanna stand up with you niggas (lourdes, hahah). The bitch that purposly tries not to laugh to make you feel stupid. The starh0e that rolls her eyes all day. I don't even remember where I'm going with this anymore because my mind is so cluttered. So maybe I'll edit this later. truce? truse? tuhrusse? i'm not even sure how to spell it, because I've never had to say it before cause I'm so fucking stubborn.

love, kristina

p.s. why did we never all take a picture together?
p.p.s. I think this is more directed to homegirls since broskiis are tight as fuck (... hahahaha). but, I wanted to say sorry to you assholes too.
p.p.p.s. lavaju (if ju accept it)
p.p.p.p.s. &fuckyou whoever is reading this & thinking WHY DOESN'T SHE DO THIS IN PERSON fucking sissy. why don't you fucking read this blog to 15 people & tell me how ju feel afterwards.